Life Goal at 30.

IMG_20170428_143252_818As I enter year 2017, I made a little resolution that I promise to achieve before I turn 30. I didn’t wrote it down (like the years before), simply because I’m not sure I can achieve it. Call me timid but life has been twice the insanity since our offspring doubled. Haha… Since I turned 30 last week and I had manage to achieve most of these little personal goals, I thought I’d write it down here…

Go to Gym at least 3 times a week.
At first, waking up at 6:15am seems to be so darn hard, but as the days goes by, I think the body has found its way to adjust its biological clock, and soon, I find myself wakes up at 5:45am sometimes to hit the gym. The main reason I went to the gym was to keep myself healthy, and after 4 months without knowing it, I realized my back pain has gone (I had this pain when I first deliver baby JN last year), and to my surprise I manage to fit into all my pre-pregnancy jeans and pants! I felt immense joy, really.

Sleep train baby JN.
If you’ve ready my previous post, I have mentioned that hubbs and I did not rush into it as she’d most probably be our last baby. She pass this process with flying colours! Since then, we don’t need to worry about putting her to sleep at all or even who’s putting her to sleep when both hubbs and I were away to Ho Chi Minh city.

Night training JH.
We started night training JH early this year and it turns out to be quite manageable. I won’t deny the first few weeks were hard, hubbs and I took turn to wake him up to pee, and sometimes we overslept and he’d just wet his bed (at one time he even pooped!). But as times goes by, we manage to predict and control his pee time – 12/1am before the hubbs goes to sleep and 5/6am when I wake up to go to the gym. We had this good rhythm for awhile and last week, my little boy woke up, went in my room and told me that he had to pee at 4am in the morning. Since then, he would magically wakes up and tell us he has to pee. I’ve also realized that he is able to hold it longer and only pee when he wakes up around 7/8am in the morning. Needless to say, I am so so proud of him!

Reduce: Waste & Plastics.
I’ve been following several bloggers and articles on their journey to ReduceWaste, ‘Sustainability’ and ‘Life without Plastics’. Turns out there are a lot of ways we can make a difference in safeguarding Mother Earth. I start to be conscious when I went grocery shopping, keeping in mind to stay away from produce that incur lots of plastic packaging. I’m not all out to turn my life upside down achieve ‘ZeroWaste’, but I know I can make a difference and I should cultivate the same value to my kids, because Everyone needs to engage their little personal commitment to live a little lighter on our planet.

Minimize and Simplify.
For the longest time, hubbs and I always have a soft spot for small home. Even when we can afford it, we just never really crave for a big house. Now raising our kids from 750 sqf apartment to our current one of 1050 sqf, we have since started our minimalist adventure and through minimizing and simplifying, we’re slowly transforming our home into a cocoon that are nurturing, comforting and calming for our little growing family. We are not 100% there yet but I hope we’re close. Having a space that are not cluttered with unnecessary junk and materials provide us the space that enable us to transform ordinary moments to precious memories. It is at this age that I truly realize the meaning of Less is indeed ‘More’ and Simple is indeed ‘Ethereal’.

{Her milk, his milk, our coffee on a typical Saturday morning.}

Last night’s incident.

IMG_20170427_074021_387The cutest thing about my first born is that he will always pick a toy to go to bed with him (every night he will make his pick, whether it’s a fire truck, cement truck, a bike or just any vehicle/transport toys). When I started to accompanying him to sleep, I made it a point that he would put the toys aside and have little conversation with me. The last few days, he’d been glued to the new LEGO helicopter fire rescue series that his kaiye bought for him, especially the fire rescue bike. So obviously he’s been bringing it to bed with him. Last night, while tugging him to sleep… Told him to put the fire rescue bike away first if he wants me to sleep with him.

JH: “but he needs love!”
Me: Don’t care, it’s either you choose the bike or mommy.
JH: …puts it away… and said: “I need to hug mommy first, after that I will come hug you ok?”
Me: {went all mushy… }

 

 

Turning 30.

IMG_20170420_163422_782Today, I turn 30, I’m officially categorize under ‘Aunty’s Club.’ Hahha.

I woke up, took a shower and made breakfast. Then I checked on JH, who’s been under the weather since a week ago. So, yeah, you can say I wasn’t feeling too excited about it, plus in our family we don’t celebrates birthday in a big bashy way. But nonetheless I’m so grateful for this particular day. I’m grateful for:

My mom… who’s always been my go-to when I need advice on financial, career, tax matters… LOL! . Thank you for always putting me and my family as your priority. Thank you for showing your everlasting love and care for us in unimaginable ways.

My parents-in-law… who’s so fit and healthy, taking care of our meals, daily chore, and our two tiny human being. Thank you for showering them with so much love, they could not have a better  嬷嬷 & 爷爷.

My hubbie… whom I can’t imagine living without. Who else’s gonna annoy the hell out of me? Just kidding. 😛 Thank you for standing by my side through this years, surely it wasn’t a bed of roses all the way, but through it all, we’ve grown to be stronger, wiser and better. I want to start living ‘the good old days’ with you right now, so when we’re old, toothless and hairless sitting next to each other in our rocking chair, we can look back and know that we have truly lived.

My Juju bey… whom don’t cease to fall sick on my birthdays. As if you have not crave for my attention on normal days, you just got to throw a big one on my big day…. (joking). I love you to the moon and back my baby boy. You might not be the loudest, toughest boy, but you have such a big heart for compassion and kindness. Please always stay this way.

My darling baby Junna…whom I have only one word to describe: Happiness. Your gleaming smile and demeanor attitude makes it such a joy to be around. You’re easy going, easily contented and mostly just a ball of overloaded cuteness. I am so blessed to be your guardian, to be your life teacher, and mostly to be the person whom you call ‘mommy’ (hopefully soon…:P).

My best friends, May & Sin Yee… whom I don’t get to see very often now. I miss our teenage times when we have so little responsibility and so much time for ourselves to discover the world. As we step into adulthood, our priorities change. But one thing I know for sure: My life will never be complete without you guys; just knowing that I will always have you guys at the back of my mind is good enough.

You know how the internet often shovel you with article, videos and even comic strips on how your life transform when you turn 30, or why life is better when you’re 30 instead of 20, or even how to excel in your 30s… etc. For me, 30 felt like an age where I should have it firmly together. Instead of ‘testing ground’, I should ‘know it better’. I hope I am better, my role as wife, mother, daughter, friend, supervisor, employee… amongst many others.

Thank you everyone who had made a difference in my 30 years of life. 🙂

The sweetest boy.

IMG_20170412_135220_272One night, while feeding Junna milk, JH came over, as usual, he will bring his truck car along and started to play around (he’s very sticky that way :). So I show JN’s tiny face scar (she’d fallen earlier that day crawling), and I told him to be careful as JN’s face is painful from the fall.

His response: “it’s ok Junna, let gor gor put magic for you.” – Put his hand towards JN’s cheeck (pretend that she blows into his palm) – Clapped! – Rubbed – and place his hand on her cheeck!

OMG! My heart Melt instantly at that moment!! He’s applying the magic trick that we’d use on him whenever he complains about pain (from falling, scratching, knocking, mosquito bites… etc).

He might not be the loud, rough, (definitely noisy), but I know he’s so kind, sweet and gentle. As small as the gesture could be, I am beaming with pride.!

**P.S.: He also shares his favourite fruit jelly to his grandparents, a reward after he finishes his homework. I gave him 4, I was suppose to share it with him. Each of us took 1, then surprisingly he ran towards to his 爷爷 and gave him one, later proceed to give another one to 嬷嬷. When he return, we’re suppose toast and eat it together, I decided to give him mine, just because he finally learns to share on his own!

Things aren’t always what they seem.

Recently, we discover a friend who’d been experiencing some rather unpleasant marital problems. Both hubbs and I were utterly filled with surprise and disbelief, simply because we were constantly in awe with his career success, his perfect family and how he constantly travel, explore, venture, progress and juggle everything all at the same time. And I released that this perfect little perception are molded and preconceived by our mind, with sole references on Social Network (and nothing else). The truth is, picture/videos only captures seconds of their life, there’s a whole lot of struggles that we’re not aware, which is perfectly normal, because that’s life.

Somehow, someway, God never fail to remind me that I’m not alone in this struggle, and comparatively, my problem are a lot smaller than these strong people.

So its time to chin up, and welcome each day with gratitude.