Happy 2nd Bithday, baby girl.

Lately, I’ve been reminiscing the earlier days when my baby pea was much much smaller, (and tamer :P). Today, she’s attending preschool and I’m pretty sure she would soon be crowned the loudest, feistiest (but cute) little terror. Sometime I wonder where did my sweet little baby pea go? Well, the universal truth is, our little girl has grown up. At two, she has become this spunky little person that’s spirited, persistent and dogged. In short, yes, she’s shown every signs of unladylike behavior and somewhat tom-boyishness gesture. I admire her courage, at the same time I’m fearful for her fearlessness. It’s scary that I can already imagine her personality and how she’s eager to go full on and take on the world. Very strong-willed child this one, as compared to her brother who’s Ohh-so-gentle.

Happy belated birthday little baby girl. This post came a little late, but I want you to know that you have all the qualities that I dreamt of you to have, which is why I want you to remember this…

My dearest baby girl,
Be loud, but be heard.
Have courage, but be kind.
Be strong, but embrace empathy at the same time.
Be mighty, with confidence (inside out).
Be assertive, but be nice.
Be stubborn, for the right reason.
Be a fighter, for the right cause.
Be tough, no matter how many time you need to pick yourself up.
Shine on, the world is waiting for you.

Love, mommy.

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Restart.

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I’m not gonna lie. First stint of being a full-time working parents, I felt like everything is falling apart. Work’s deadline, mining a pet project, juggling a new daily routine with the kids, scheduling and more scheduling. All hell broke loose when Junna fell sick, then Ju-Hann. I just felt overwhelming at the moment. Then I browse through the photos in my mobile phone and it hit me. I choked up. These babies of mine are no longer babies. I need to focus on life instead of being petulant about it. I recollect myself and I press the restart button and remind myself: I’m so ehhfing blessed to have these two in my life.

509.

photo6309624635536287784509. A day that we Malaysians will remember deeply in our hearts.
509. A day where we see the unsung heroes living amongst us, near or far.
509. A day we united as one.
509. A day where we have come a long long way.
509. A day I see so many unwavering faiths of Malaysians striving towards one goal.
509. A day I learn that its never too late to right the wrongs from the past.
509. A day we truly learn the meaning of HARAPAN – HOPE – 希望
509. A day that we tell our children that we voted, for all the sane reasons, that we were hopeful.

In God we trust, in Him we surrender. Please be with us today.

Reading, lately.

Hello February…
It felt like January just whiz by, time is ticking way faster than seconds. There’s always so much to do, so much to complete, so much to tick off the list. My resolution to live a slower 2018 seems far fetch, but its ok, I know I will get there…

Last year I finished reading ‘When Breath becomes Air’, ‘Bringing up Bebe’ and ‘Simple Matters’. All three are of 3 very different genre and I enjoyed all of them very much.

When Breath becomes Air
Two words: Hauntingly beautiful. As I flip through the pages, it pains me to know that the author, a remarkable surgeon, gifted writer, loving father and devoted husband has departed. It was an honour to read this memoir. Every sentence, every words is filled with courage, strength, resilience and love when he’s come face to face with death itself. The epilogue by Lucy made me choke and tear (who wouldn’t?). So much life juxtaposition (life/death, doctor/patient, faith/fate) that made you question what matters most at the end of the day?

Bringing up Bebe by Pamela Druckerman
This books pretty sums up the way Asian parent bringing up their kids, except that it’s a lot milder for the French. I love the brutal honest insights and opinions of the author starting from pregnancy, childbirth, toddler-hood. I love how the book is written with humorous anecdote, lively commentary and well researched content.

I love how Druckerman concludes the first chapter of the book “There are dozens of books offering Americans helpful theories on how to parent differently. I haven’t got a theory…. I’m starting with the outcome and working backward to figure out how the French got there. It turns out that to be a different kind of parent, you don’t just need a different parenting philosophy. You need a very different view of what a child actually is.”

I’m still working my way to parent differently even for my own 2 kids, so I’ll definitely revisit this book in time to come.

Simple Matters by Erin Boyle
Having being an avid reader of Reading my tea leaves, I knew about the book that she wrote. I hesitate for awhile as I thought that, being her blog follower I would probably have read most of the contents. In my quest towards living minimally and cultivate simpler lifestyle, this books resonates so well in how I want to approach life on day-to-day basis.

Current read: Elon Musk by Ashlee Vance
Next bucket list: The Bright Hour by Nina Riggs & Zero Waste Home by Bea Johnson.

 

 

Man of Honor.

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Have you guys watch this movie called ‘ Man of Honor’?

I watched it with hubbs last week and I’ve got to say it’s one of the best movies I’ve ever watch. It’s been awhile since I watch a movie that made me hold my breath through moment-gripping scenes. I love how the story unfolds the unexpected, the reverse of heroism in a strict military environment,  and most importantly, the fact that it’s based on true story (if you know me by now, I’m a sucker for movies that are inspired/based on true-story).

It portrays the tenacity, the sheer determination, the undying perseverance to achieve one’s dream. Through sheer true grit, one overcome and rise above everyone and everything else. Definitely a must-watch with my kiddos when they’re older!

A couple of my favorite quote from the movie:

“Don’t quit when it gets hard.”

“Why do you want this so badly?” He responds, “Because they said I couldn’t have it.”

“What the hell did he ever say to make you try so hard?”
“Be the best.”

 

To a slower 2018.

IMG_20180107_073755_838Taking a few steps back, live a little slower.
Looking back the past year, I felt that a lot of my energy was poured on social media and online reading. Somehow, the more I read/watch, the more drawn I was to read/watch, afraid of missing any news feed/article. As I grew older, time are so precious to me that I want to focus on things that are important: my family, my health, my work, my mini goals to be better. I will venture into making food (& coffee) more, read a little more and just basically go a little slower whenever I’m not working.

Taking baby steps on sustainability.
Instead of focusing on ‘zero waste’, I would like to start by ‘reducing waste’. It’s rather challenging for working mom like me to discard all food that comes with packaging (whether it’s bio or non biodegradable materials). Instead I’ve decided to take baby steps, consuming less, conscious buying and generally remind myself to reduce carbon footprint wherever possible. As small as it is,  we’ll make gradual shift in our in our habits to safeguard the planet we call home. Some tips here if you’re striving towards reducing waste like me.

Taking on slow parenting.
Slow parenting cherishes quality over quantity, being in the moment, and making meaningful connection with your family,” an excerpt about slow parenting in this article. I loved the idea about simply watching your children. I’ve been showering both JH & JN together during the weekends, it started all because I wanted to cut short the time, but they ended up giggling and having so much fun scrubbing down each other, playing with water, buckets and empty shampoo bottles. Its these moments that I take my time to just look at them, to soak up all their innocence and goofiness that it breaks my heart from overflowing sweetness. Those precious moments made me feel like the luckiest person be their mommy.

There, these are my 3 little resolution towards a slower (hopefully better) 2018. What’s yours?

 

 

 

 

If the kettle could talk…

Screenshot_20171231-151530If the kettle could talk…It will tell you how it has witness the family expanded from married couple into family of four.

If the kettle could talk… It will tell you how he saw the married couple shed tears of frustration when they’re all alone due to work stress and the adversity they encounter.

If the kettle could talk… It will tell you the courage the married couple embraced to make a career change in their lives.

If the kettle could talk… It will tell you that it has travelled to 3 different homes, where it has withstand a broken lid and a damaged light, yet still provide impeccable service.

If the kettle could talk, it will tell you the latenight oils that the couple burn to complete assignments, study for exams, rushing for work deadlines and presentation.

If the kettle could talk… It will tell you that the married couple had exchange countless morning kisses and had long chat about love, life and the future while making coffee/breakfast over the counter.

If the kettle could talk… It will tell you the many banters and arguments between the married couple, and how they always make up with a warm cup of tea, as they vowed to never go to bed angry and leaving matters unresolved.

If the kettle could talk… It will tell you how worried the grief stricken parents whenever their children fall sick, the countless sleepless night where they rely on coffee to stay awake.

If the kettle could talk… It will give you an advice: Most times, the worst thing in life will boiled over; that everything will cool down when it reach to a boiling point. Live life, let go and move on, because, life is too short to hold grudges  & bereavement. 

Adious my faithful servant, thank you for your loyal service throughout the years. I still remember how excited we were when we decided to bought you 5 years ago at Harvey Norman’s store, and because you were pricey, we make you as a birthday gift to Johan. You have contribute to our lives more than you think, for that we’re grateful. 

Dose of Happiness.

IMG_20171212_134930_193Yesterday was Selangor’s PH, so hubbs brought along our eldest to drop me off at work. As usual, the little one get super excited as soon as he steps into my office, (he have a thing of going to mommy’s and dada’s work place). The whole 3o minutes he was there, he can’t stop babbling and asking questions to fellow gor gor, ceh ceh and uncles (my colleagues).

Things he does include:

  • Walking up and down the staircase
  • Swing his feet by the mezzanine floor
  • Looking at the finishes in the studio
  • Got uncle Keith to draw him a Darth Vader and a Batman
  • Asking for food and drinks.
  • Exploring the gigantic plotter printer

It’s so good to have a good dose of happiness before I start my day at work!

Growing up Fast.

IMG_20171121_142841_692Life has been so hectic for the past few months that I haven’t blog for awhile now. But today, I decided to jot this little entry because I’m super duper proud with my little boy’s achievement at school. Hubbs posted his report card of our eldest and he passed, with flying colours!

Last weekend, we attended his concert and one of the programme was the 6 year’s old’s graduation ceremony. They sing, dance, each with a fresh rose in their hand. And when they’re done, they were instructed to face towards their mommy and hand the flowers to their mommies. That scene made me choked up. It was at that moment that it hit me, next year this time it will be my boy’s turn. I missed my little boy so so much already.

Since he pass his 5th birthday, I’ve noticed that he has grown to be a little more mature, willing to take instructions and having less tantrums. His imagination always leaves me in awe, happy boyish talkative energy with funny stories, and the most amazing part, he’s full of empathy and kindness. I loved this boy so much, more and more each day.